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... I had already reported the 2 new. As of today there are 5 ..

The talks, the English, is also called Carlos. He lived for a time in the States because his mother was an American conductor. We get along very well, him and David, I just bring in a little German. Today we sat down and listened to German music. All across the board: July, Nena, Rammstein, Bushido ... what you hear just needs .. (Especially Bush), I then translated ... I could feel the enthusiasm, you realize that it broadens their horizons.
Carlos is 22, he told me that he is consumed drugs since he was 9, and lives on the street since he was 13 ... Then at 20 he has procured a job and rented an apartment .. People who additionally English speak, is made easy to find work. There are many call centers, you google "globalization" and so ... He deserves so good, so had a normal life until just the drug addiction. He added it would be excessive rather, everything has been across the board. Much earlier robbed, marijuana, crack cocaine smoked, injected cocaine and crack (boiled with alcohol, so it goes, I've learned today), glue sniffing (when there was no money), several suicide attempts with cracks, overdose ... etc. pp. Now he is taking pills because his body sometimes goes on strike. Last week he was stabbed by an unknown assailant with a knife in the side, looked like pain, the wound ... He was on the night Road on consume, just at the wrong time, wrong place. That sounds all pretty awesome, although he was aware of his problems. This is his 16th place rehab stay (!!!). He told me that he has resumed contact with his family and that last year his first Christmas in 10 years was with the family, it felt good, "he said. "Before I turn running around barefoot in San Jose, I'd rather die." A really interesting guy, but unfortunately has very little love left over for yourself!

We've talked about Carlitos, that some things, such as mouth, for it is nothing serious. Carlos told me that he also taught get, that has many bad things are ok just because his mother was addicted to drugs. Carlitos case, since even very hard, because how to make one - in age - almost adult values, which are totally opposite to his previous ones?
Carlos told me that he can not celebrate normal. Once he starts, he is shortly thereafter from his money on alcohol. Or stop only when he passes out. We talked about the fact that these are just the thoughts of a drug addict, I'm thinking of her normal, I said. Laughing, then came "You're not normal. In a weird but cool way ... that's not normal to have you here with me, sits at the center. And do not believe in God ...". I would have to run once a tally how many times I've heard.

David told me yesterday at dinner, that he came to the drug addiction because his brothers and stepfather are related and his mother ever so "annoyed" is, precisely because it was concerned about him. It has annoyed him so that he has finally begun to bear their talk. Too bad, he said, he never did drugs ... In addition, his mother probably rather be a girl instead of him would have had as a boy. This has probably gives him a small crack. Sometimes he would kill his mother. He said, "I'm not really normal. This is not normal a thought! ".. where he is right ...

Another is New 18, forget names, I think speaks to a lot of smoke pot (not that otherwise will not talk about drugs) and is in his own words over 30-year Gringas. "They are simply more mature," and so ... mother substitute, otherwise I can not even tell me something. When I told him then that I was 19, said he only pejorative "ahhh ... una chiquita "," Well, just not more than you do. "about his laughter of others * direct, it seems to me to give plus points that you notice it again and again.

The" quiet New "seemed at first very much in the vice versa. It is also my age, seemed still very likeable, so I forced him a few times to conversations with me, but it was nice because of my smile, that I have always laid back in the day, but has probably fallen somewhat.
Initially, when new arrive, you think sometimes that have a defensive attitude towards me. But mostly it's just that they wait until they know who and how I am until you get to know them, then they are quite different from the beginning. Maybe they've all somehow learned to observe everything first before you approach someone. If you are in a group, and I interact with others, I find the new then also somehow very cool. Do you just say ... it is yes. If you then conversations with them out alone, you learn it better. When they realize it is not a psychologist and has interest in them, they are very open, with their persons and their problems, too. In general I am of the others usually presented as a "blessing" or "Boxer", or both. I have already obtained directly sympathy! The New
never talked to me, if I had not approached him. Why I was here, he asked, and for whom I would do it. I do it for me, I said, but other people will also benefit, makes me happy. "So you do it not for God?" Here we are again on the subject! "No, not for God ."... He was very funny. and why because I had no friend. Silence. "I do not understand that a beautiful woman like you has no friend ."... "Yes. I will not stop," the standard answer to the "I would like to have friend like you" comments, and generally to prevent further inquiries. Too much information is then too much, and in one of the first conversations, it is not just right. Secretly, I can not explain the phenomenon of my single life itself. But before I wrap myself from a Latino to let the finger, and afterwards with a border that has next to me, another friend, I'd rather stay single. Haha. Since I have to laugh smooth.
I would still like to know times, how many times a day, a Latino, the words "que guapa, que cosita mas linda, que bonitos tus ojos, Ay Mamita" or "rica, mami" is on its own. A Latino who works in the street probably 38876487 times!
work here felt the way most people on the street. Everywhere there are stalls with fruits and vegetables to sell people things every day in buses, ostensibly for poor children or for drug projects. But sometimes it's just because of the sale. At each bus stop is at least one person, the little chip packages for the equivalent of 20 cents, sold or nuts, or something. With me on the bus to El Carmen de Guadalupe always an elderly man walks by the banks and calls softly "rica, rica, y la gelatina hielhelado" ... He sold water ice and Jell-O and greets it all the women he knows her from seeing the men of course not.

I noticed that all the men here love the women. also clear that the German men. But it is so that men will find all women beautiful. Some more than others, but they are all pretty! In the bus I take out regularly the right to enter from all men. But mostly I have the right to take the first not at first because they bide me. Then I get on with my big sports bag, and you're on one, and leaves me sitting there. Thank you!
Just as the daily monitoring by the boxing training. Is simply a matter of course that one is accompanied by a woman. Many also carry my bag, some pay the bus for me and if I accidentally falls down a bit, I do not need as long as in Germany wait on it that I am a man picks up my things. Just as it should be with, or contradicts me anyone? Maybe I'll try, if you would also massage my feet. I think so, why not. Sometimes I bet secretly with myself, what man bends down to first ... then I drop something! My gap year indicated.
The taxi drivers who want to know whether I want a ride shouting "Taxi, reina?", Which means such as "Taxi, Queen?" means. Since you want to enter but smooth.
Nevertheless one has to get used to it that one of the first comments is a new acquaintance of the male sex, that I look pretty, great eyes or similar ... then after that the question of whether I am free, or that competition is here ... I mean, if I have a friend of course. It's amusing, sometimes I take the comments already anticipated, we see it in their faces if they send you soon a compliment, "Well, my eyes or ?"... "Nice I look, or ?"... "Do you like me now?" Understand all the obvious with a smile, but they do not usually my smile, and the question is, however, reinforced the comments and only one indicated yes, that one wants to hear it. But then I have no problem with ...

Back to the new one. Another new, 28 years, he was estimated to be 23, Esteban, is also quite nice so far. He has tattooed the name of his son in his arms. This has been really a lot of us. Papi, so that would make me really happy the way, if you get my name tattooed can also use your arm. I call that money well spent.

Another is probably David, where he has presented me with some hard to pronounce name. He came today, had long hair. That's always what if then they must have ne bald. He's also very likeable, even back in my old age.

would ask me every day, because when I bring my camera to shoot pictures. Since then I have to print some pictures with my left, have photos of me and won with enthusiasm. When you open the closed doors of the closed door wall in a dormitory, flashing images everywhere out of myself. Therefore regularly the comment of the New "I have seen a picture of you, really pretty."

The old Carlos, who has problems with his memory, yesterday I put some motivational words to my heart. He said he had not had time to learn. I told him then 2 Class that it was enough to get 20 minutes a day. This is efficient enough. He was motivated to express his appreciation, and then asked again today how much he should learn for today.

have in recent days, I often get comments about my striking good English. Can indeed be nurnoch better! So that if one is forced daily to compete against 30 drug addicts from the street, and then also have to think a thousand times fast answers to all the comments. The ghetto-slang I understand quite well. If you want to be taken then time really seriously, slang and throws a few comments in the space one is directly one of them! Brother and so on! But then not so very brother. Just something special.

I am grateful for the comments, I thought it read any of my monologues, so it probably is obvious but no monologues.

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Carlitos is still there. He is doing well, he may rumzustenkern it, but every now and then you realize whose fault is it then but not what and whom. With his young age of 19 you could tell that he still needs to learn (I say that as much as-mature!). He will probably run away too soon, because after so many comments is a no Choice than to think "He just does not understand yet .... or it will not ...".. I can not even do much, because what I would tell him he has been told many before me. In the right situation I still try every now and then him on the right path to steer. More I can not ultimately do so.

The 2 new brothers are gone after 2 days. Only the third new, Carlos, he said, is still there. I also understand that he is, not so new because it was some time ago once in Canaan Intern. He knew the words. Monday he saw compared to previous Friday for world better. He was doing well, he is quite open and cheerful person. He had previously lived on the street. But, as I learned today that a 1-month-old daughter and a wife. But because he drank a lot, he's finally landed on the road. Today he was quite hurt, as yesterday - day of visit - no one has come from his family. He knew it was probably his fault, but he still would have liked to see his daughter. He wants to learn English, so I tried to teach him Thursday, the alphabet. For an hour I tried it the letter "g" and "h" in English corral, unfortunately without success. We've also noticed that the memory was not as the best, although he is not older than 45. As homework he must practice it now!

Another pastor, who looked after in Desamparados, another part of San Jose, a parish, and in Canaan once a week therapy sessions gives me some time ago asking if I was in his church is not a time to week could teach English. There is a lot of people want to learn, but no money for a teacher. In addition there such a teaching in such an environment people positive perspective, especially the many young people there. Therefore, once a week can make sure I can jump in anywhere of course not, because "only once a week" is for me a full day, after work, with arrival and departure; but I'll see what I can do. I told him at the moment it was time something moderately tight, but as soon as my dance class is over, I would like to do. He is now in the process create a list with the people that are interested, then we will see. He asked to search for a driving opportunity to go home. That's me all right, in the evening you will never like to be alone on the street. For images of the "church" which he showed me the area seems to be poor, so you can connect to minimum security and many drugs. We'll see how that develops.

Jimmy (you see, my older pictures!) Has reported a few days ago the pastor that 4 Interns Marijuana No smoking. Then little fanfare, everyone wanted to kill Jimmy. The four were yes Allan, Steven, Kevin and Johnny. Allan wanted to throw a bucket according to Jimmy, then he was forbidden to leave on the day the project. As Allan so goes to school, and they did not give up, he then left the project. Now lives, "he in a cheap hotel, he can just make such with prostitutes, not the best place for a drug addict.
Yesterday, on Sunday are, he and his parents came to the center, as Allan's brother David is still with us, they visited him. Allan's parents will not let him stay with him, because everything seems to be happening. David looked bad, when he came to us. Mitlerweile he looks much better, still very small, but one he sees the "drogadiction" not so, it has grown his hair a bit and he trains regularly, submit to the muscles and therefore also weight. Steven has
then abruptly packed his things. Why, no idea. 15 days he was missing to complete the 6-month program successfully ... did he not feeling well. As a small parting gift he has taken Jimmy's clothes and then wrote him a nice farewell as a thank you letter that he squealed.
With Kevin and Johnny so far nothing has happened. Guess they had a serious talk with the pastor and are on probation. Johnny continued to smoke anyway, Kevin I know nothing. Other

very amusing story. About 2 weeks I have my dear friend, the policeman Johel, visited briefly on the work. He was in full police gear. Etc., etc. Big Schu-proof vest, a police car and two other colleagues at the gate in Alajuelita and asked for me. As in a chain so they called after me "Benita ... come here ... there is someone for you." I saw Johel and walked around the grounds to the gate. I passed about 4 interns, who were all such as frozen and followed my steps with the eyes. I greeted Johel and we talked briefly, he was at work, then had to go again. When I went back they came directly to me and asked what I had to do with them. Johnny is not at all pleased that I have to do with a private police. You could not believe it, it was a kind of outrage from the one or the other to feel in the air. Wilberth thought I had problems with the police.

Pipa, one of the "chief Interns, and Leiman, another internal (in the pictures of the white cap and white shirt), have" fought "in front of about a week because of some medium-sized thing, or beaten, therefore, the two have now again a bald head and Pipa is now a normal sintering. Hence, only Juan one of the "Supreme".

Johnny and Leiman have 2 days ago on the way to Work out a telephone conversation, which is forbidden. Juan has informed Wilberth, and now Johnny has a bald head again. He now looks no more like Daddy Yankee, but like Vin Diesel, as he himself says so very modest.

David is now in the process of learning German. He finds it very amusing that I am so behind to teach him German. But he is very motivated, German is an interesting language. The alphabet, he can already. Ä, Ö and Ü he practiced last week before falling asleep, now he can finally say it. Has gone on, not IUE, but finally to say OB.

Wilberth is a therapy sessions twice a week in prison in Alajuela. This is one of the most dangerous prisons be here, or the prison with "the least security." There, he asked if he could take with me and it was allowed. Today he told me on 19 together we go to jail. This is certainly a pleasure.

Maikol, was reported by him several times, is now returned. Where was he? Good question, he says he was in Guanacaste, Costa Rica from a different province, with a female companion. Believe it does so no. Let's see how it develops with him.

have also been two other new ones. Of a still somewhat closed, the other very nice, keep on withdrawal, but nice, spoke English and told me in getting to know "Oh, the German, I've heard a lot from you ."...

Lately I do a lot with Johnny, who had the left the project. mitlerweile We are good friends, and I find it quite reasonable that he times gets me through a different perspective on life. Last week he told me that I was the only one of his friends who are not using drugs and stealing. In such an environment it is hard to build a decent life, but he is . on the way, just that he needs precisely, it took a cooking class, I should perhaps do even

Last week the first misfortune. My phone was stolen I can not explain it to me, I was not careless and got. nobody in my immediate vicinity have noticed and taken care of my bag, but there is no success someone to steal my phone from my pocket. Everything else was still there, even my MP3 player, just that phone was gone. Very annoying, you should not at best think about where the phone now is ... It's just never sure! ... Have my number blocked. The pastor is Desamparados then after work drove me directly in the city to gather information for a new phone. If I had gone off alone, I'd probably higher prices will be served. When I was alone in a Elektogeschäft, and let me advise, suddenly came a man with extreme alcohol flag, blue Eye and scars on the head to us. He had a fairly good Sony Ericsson in the hand, similar to mine, and interrupted our conversation, because he wanted to know how much his phone unless value. I could not believe this guy seriously with a mobile phone was stolen shortly before, probably in front of me and wanted to flog obvious as soon as possible (like mine!) - The drug benefit coming. The next day at work you could otherwise not around then sum up the man's good that I have not bought a phone for 20 euros, "he would have done anything, he just needed money for drugs." My immediate answer was "No, I do not buy stolen stuff!" "Oh, Benita ... everyone does it ... it is everywhere stolen and everyone is buying stolen phones "... I was very perplexed, had the situation not at all thought about it, to buy such a guy a phone, even if it ultimately might be cheaper than buying a new one. I was also aware however, I've definitely done the right thing. It may be that all do it, but only because now all the stolen phones, steal so many people. So if any one were to maintain my morals, the world would be a bit better, you just have to clearly . Fortunately, I am saying so social.
On the same day I then went with Johnny again and got me with it a new chosen for about 70 €. Not in the quality of my old one, but probably better that way, it's still nice. Mitlerweile my old number is activated again.
Benita is back in the game.

Johnny was also a very good support, just as last week my dear Grandma Mary died. In the project I was very supportive, everyone was there for me. On their way, they have not come all and have their condolences expressed, but in the right situation, they have given me einzelnd courage and talks about how some of them were in the same situation, or as my grandma now freely without pain see in the sky. Although I am not very religious to me this view the whole thing a little easier. My grandma is now celebrating so left out with the grandmother of David and grandmother of Leiman ... let you go well, Omi!



Last Friday I got myself free and I took time with some friends for a long weekend in Puerto Viejo down on the Caribbean coast. This place is crowded with tourists, or better "gringos" that make it a good time. Our hotel "Rockin Js" was beautiful.



We
for 4 dollars a night have slept in hammocks covered in the open, you could have in a tent or sleep in a room can. Hammock ... that was something new, definitely a nice experience. The hotel was very clean and almost exclusively in the mosaic style. Everywhere they found messages like "rooms behind on you, your mother is not here," "Do not write on the walls, you're not in prison," or "Here Please do not smoke pot, go to the beach!". I found quite amusing, and has also acted in some way.

not at all like the tourists!


"No shirt, shoes, skirt, NO PROBLEM!" "Beer now cheaper than gas, drink dont drive!"




Say no to drugs, that will bring the prices down ..